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December 15, 2012 by Jeane George Weigel 7 Comments

What Does It Mean to be an Artist?

Note: As I continue to battle shingles I find I have less creative energy–less energy overall, truth be told. So on days when I feel myself  a little overwhelmed, I am re-publishing some of my favorite posts from the past. I hope those of you who are new to the blog will enjoy reading them for the first time and that followers from long ago will find something new in them.

AND, I am taking the time I would normally take writing this morning’s post to do a step-by-step recipe for Kim’s Date Nut Bread. It’s posting tomorrow so be sure to watch for it.

 What Does It Mean to be an Artist?

It’s much easier to write about faith and hope than fear and despair. But I am human and these emotions are part of the fabric of my life too. I don’t think it’s always supposed to be easy. We’re tested and pushed as part of the plan.

Southwest Rainbow

I liken it to carbon under pressure producing diamonds, or a grain of sand becoming the pearl—pounding iron in the forge to make it stronger. It seems to be a universal pattern and I don’t think it’s because life is cruel. We don’t get the light without the shadow. One shapes and defines the other.

Mountain Storm

Like all of us, I have my shadow side where the less comfortable human emotions dwell in darkness. I get scared. I doubt. I want to be taken care of. Until fairly recently I haven’t been willing to admit this openly to myself, let alone to others. I believed it showed weakness and, like all prey animals, I’ve spent a lifetime hiding any sign of vulnerability and flinching at every scent of danger.

Storm at Sunset

Many Native American cultures see the black unknown as a place of growth, not something to be feared. They believe we go into darkness to find light, that in the stillness of the void we heal. And I have to say it’s been true in my life. The darkest journeys have offered the greatest illumination once I’m through to the other side. Roethke says, “In a dark time, the eye begins to see”.

Southwest Sunset

The life of an artist demands leap after leap of faith. It can be very challenging. When I’m staring at a blank computer screen or an empty canvas and nothing comes, when my checking account is down to almost nothing and my savings are gone, when every fiber of my being tells me it’s all over, it’s the end, it’s not working, I’ve lost, my life demands something of me: Not that I be fearless but that, if I am afraid, I face it. I don’t run. It asks me to stand in the self-doubt and the fear, to get comfortable there, to know I am human and this is part of it, to have compassion. I am guided to embrace this scared and vulnerable part of me—to bring her out into the light where she can breathe. To face the blank canvas, the empty bank accounts and continue to believe.

White clouds

And I have. Through it all, this magical, mysterious journey continues to unfold. The paintings and the words come, collectors buy. The sun comes up in the east every morning and sets in the west. And little by little I know I can trust. I can have faith.

Southwest Rainstorm

There is a wonderful plan for my life and I am on the right path. It will not always be easy and it’s not meant to be. But I am to relish the sun AND the rain, the shadow as well as the light. One is not right and the other wrong, one good and one bad. It is all part of a rich and beautiful whole. As I explore both, as I find my footing, I will one day live my way into balance. And perhaps, soon, I may make my peace with fear and it will become a welcome visitor to my creative life.

Evening Sun

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Filed Under: A Meaningful Life Tagged With: being an artist, pursuing the dream

Comments

  1. Joy Patterson says

    October 22, 2010 at 8:21 am

    Jeane, the photos you captured are incredibly beautiful and your writing continues to be poetic and powerful as you bare your soul. I do, and always have, wished for you to reach your balance. Your art, whether it be painting beautiful canvases, writing through your emotions, or capturing incredible photos to share what you see every day…you are amazing. I love you, dear friend, and wish you only happiness. Lovejoy

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    • jeane says

      October 22, 2010 at 4:09 pm

      Thank you, Joy. Your love and support have always meant the world to me. You have always been my biggest fan, no matter what it is I’m doing. You always see it through the eyes of love and I’m very grateful for that. Love and happiness back to you over the miles.

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  2. Grace Kane says

    October 24, 2010 at 2:33 pm

    Thanks for all your soulful sharing Jeane, we live and learn thru eachothers trials, but mostly thru our own stumbles and delight in climbing back up again. Thank you for exposing your hear to the masses that they can have an example of how on CAN find new and creative ways to face fear and climb back on the “horse” that once frightened us. You are a lovely light and so we seek your candle like shine to show us your way that we may be open to our own.

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    • jeane says

      October 24, 2010 at 3:09 pm

      Thank you, Grace. It’s why I’m writing about my life, because I believe we are all connected and the same and benefit from each other’s experiences. And writing is also showing myself to me. I think it’s the universe’s next method of nudging me to my growth. It has me looking more deeply and openly than I ever have before. It’s a blessing. I’m grateful if it touches you, too.

      Typos are part of being human, right? There are typos in many of my comments too. It’s still clear what you’re saying. I just really appreciate your input always.

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  3. Grace Kane says

    October 24, 2010 at 2:47 pm

    Forgive my typos:) My ego speaking here.

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  4. Third_stone says

    December 15, 2012 at 12:18 pm

    Of course you are low on energy. You are sick. Your body is using its energy to heal you. Do not let the weakness and illness get you down. These things will drag your spirits down. To lift you spirits helps the healing. Look outside your door. Your life is beautiful. Look at your blog, where you are widely admired. There is a lot in your life to be cheerful about.

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About High Road Artist IMG 9461 150x150I am Jeane George Weigel, a working artist living in the mountains of northern New Mexico, and I do not think you and I are so different.

Every single one of us longs to know what we ache for, to “follow our bliss” as Joseph Campbell famously put it. You may find yours as an artist, a writer, or a teacher. But I am convinced we all yearn to live what is in our hearts. Some of us spend a lifetime discovering what that is. Some never find it.

This blog is about a journey of self-discovery, yours and mine. I write about the experience of living an artist’s life and share musings and photos as this living experiment unfolds. It is my hope you’ll join in the conversation by writing to me about your lives and I dearly hope something, here, will inspire you.

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