I hear you about needing to relax and trust that we will manage. I know that this is one of Julia Cameron’s big points and one of those easier-said-than-done issues.
I had an epiphany this morning about your situation that was pretty powerful.
Buddha said the heart will be broken again and again and again until it stays open.
Some woodchucks got into my garden and destroyed a huge swath of it, decimating the ENTIRE crops of broccoli, and red cabbage, and a good amount of the beets.
I have poured myself a glass of wine to enjoy as I write to you. I wish you were here to share one with me.
I am feeling much better today and will be in my studio for most of the morning, once I get through chores….
“If I were an old Chinese sage, I’d say that… your body is telling me that you need to let go, and that you are struggling to do so.”